I’m so happy that so many people are excited for me and want to read this sometimes weird sometimes sad sometimes hilarious story I’m putting together each day.

I’m going to learn quickly to do something I’m not comfortable with – ask for help.

There’s an artist I’m a big fan of, Amanda Palmer, and she’s fantastic and amazing and she once wrote a book called The Art of Asking  – full disclosure, I have not read it. I DID listen to her TED Talk, though and I do happen to be a big fan of everything else she’s done.

So here’s the deal – I need someone who might want to help me with a little photoshop project as well as figuring out how to make this crazy wordpress blog do what I want it to do. Every time I hunt around on the internet for help on wordpress I find a bunch of html stuff – well, as an accountant, that mostly just makes me want to puke. I’d love to say things like “how do I put widgets at the top of my home page?” and someone could say “you click this.” Hearing “blah blah code string blah blah” makes me want to close my laptop and take a nap.

But don’t be confused, I’m going to need help from a lot of different people for a lot of different things. And I just happen to be TERRIBLE at asking for help. I had a long discussion with my mother this weekend about some very powerful influences in my life at a young age that instilled deep within me “rely on no one, do everything for yourself.” My therapist (who I’ll probably do talk to sooner than later) says that the definition of intimacy is allowing yourself to need other people. When she originally told me that I had “intimacy issues” I laughed – NO WAY. I have ALLLLLLL these friends! I love people! I have so many relationships! But when she said “oh, no, I mean you have to let yourself need other people” I was like “oh, no, I’m not going to do that. That’s ridiculous!”

So, I’m going to make a bigger effort to open myself to asking for help – I’ve even taken the steps to talk to a friend about helping me by being my doula, and I’m pretty excited about it.

Ahem. Help? You’re welcome to email me at 1plus1.me@gmail.com or send me a message on Facebook, or send me a text, or call me, or knock on my door. And if you think you’d like to help me later, with things unrelated to the internet, let me know that, too. And thanks in advance, because helping me is probably going to be difficult.