Today was my big scan – so far it would appear I’m six weeks along. I’ve spent the past two weeks thinking about what it would be like if just *poof* it was all over and it would be time to try again.

When Dr Scotchie came in to the room today, she said “wow, that was fast, huh?” We both laughed. She said I’d beaten those 25% odds already and was impressed with how the tests had shown my levels to be so good already.

So she did the (transvaginal) ultrasound and lo and behold – there is a blob. And that blob measures exactly right. And that blob has a heartbeat. And I heard the heartbeat and I said “that’s weird.” Because that’s what all normal mothers do, right? They don’t burst into happy tears, they just cock their head to the side and say “that’s weird.”

But it IS weird – I’m making another tiny person. How can that NOT be weird? And it still doesn’t feel real, by any means. It gets more so as the days go by, but I am still cautiously optimistic and none of it feels like a thing that is actually happening to me – not yet. She said that as of now, with all the information she has, miscarriage chances drop to 10%, and in two weeks, when I go back if all is well, they’ll drop to 3%.

Theoretically, I’ll be due 05/02/2017 and am currently 6 weeks along. After my 8 week scan, I’ll head over to the regular OB and bid farewell to TRM and Dr. Scotchie – which is good news, but a little sad. They got me this far and they’ve been great.

So, here you go, friends – here is the first photo of this new little person (it’s the blob).

Oh and for those of you hoping for twins, thankfully it appears to just be one blob.