So I SUPPOSE I am now four months pregnant, which is great. After holding steady at the same weight, I seem to be up about 3 or 4 pounds – we’ll see if it stays. I’ve been conflicted about constantly griping that I don’t FEEL pregnant because that means I’m not terribly uncomfortable and it sounds like I’m complaining about it being too easy. But the truth of the matter is that not “feeling” pregnant makes me worry that something is wrong, so I guess that’s really what I’m talking about. 

My mom and my birth coach, Katrina, met up with me for dinner this week so they could get to know each other and we could all talk. I feel very lucky to have both of them on my team and am pretty sure that I’ll have two fantastic advocates for me during a wild and crazy time.

I also got my second hand pregnancy pillow this week and used it last night for her first time. If you have no idea what that is, here’s a link to this one. I wasn’t entirely sure how to approach it last night, but I will say that after a serious night’s sleep tangled up in that thing, I may not need the stack of other pillows currently taking up space on the bed. I was so glad to have it given to me by some friends at the gym.

I guess I have noticed this week being a little more tired at nights and in the morning as well as feeling worn out at the gym. But I’m glad I’m still going!

Last night I had someone walk up and put their hand on my stomach for one of the first times. Having spent 90% of the last 35 years trying to hide my stomach, it was a new situation. I was surprised but I knew she was just excited for me so I get it. I’m sure that will happen more and more as I start to show.

Ember is now (per the internet) 4.5 inches long and doing all kinds of working becoming a person. I’m having my mom join me for my next ultrasound appointment in December and I think she’ll have a lot of fun – it’s my 20 week so I think they’ll do an anatomy scan so that’ll be interesting.